Suckers for life

365 days

2011-01-25T02:24:00.002+08:00

Wow im back here blogging again...i cant believe i told myself not to come back and blog but here i am..lol..anyway..i would say this year is quite a transitional yr for me..transfering from one uni to another..and being settled down emotionally..and socially. Thinking back, i still rmbing receive a farewell hongbao from my uncle..just before i depart to aussie last yr..now it seems like history is repeating itself again though im going back with a different fren .

Well i find that time passes quickly when u busy or obssessed with something. Just like i was sitting in front of my Alienware a few min ago battling some quests on Aion. Weird though im back on this mmorpg for no reason. Bought some kinahs from a china website just becos of my earnest desire to improve my templar rather than farming for kinahs which i could not afford the time.

Recently, i receive a weird sms from an unknown source, i then realise someone pretend to be me and leak out some infos to a social escort and she sms me asking me to go out. I was rather stunned and the first thing tat came to my mind was tat this could be a prank sms by one of my fren. As my no. was quite recently changed,and not much ppl know my new no. so this person who gave her my number could be one of my close fren i reckon. But as usual no one admits..as of until now i couldnt find out the culprit. but nevertheless i granted the wish of the social escort and meet her out. We went for lunch ,hang around shopping centre and lastly for dinner just purely for frenship..she ask me if i wanna engage her services..i humbly rejected her as im not tat kind of person.she was quite a frenly and accomodating person from the way she reacts to wat i say.

Life is like a drama to me..Life experiences could not be bought by money.

The end of a semester

2009-11-23T23:40:00.002+08:00

Well its been so long since i last blog..the weather had been so erratic since i came here..from extreme cold to cold to extreme hot..wat can i say man..lol..

wat i cant realli stand is ppl betraying me..but then.. i told myself..i can forget everything but in my heart i cant..i care so much for her..in the end i felt betrayed..i felt being made used of..well..tats y relationship of the heart is always so complicated...i told myself as long as we r happy it doesnt realli matter..but then i think its time to let go..and look forward...

i got a serious headache man..i gotta eat panadol and wake up early for tml..tml gonna go gold coast haha...im the only fucking driver driving 2 girls and a guy..cos my best buddy gotta go back sg so sudden..for his fren funeral..haiz..

About a couple hours ago, i went for dinner celebration with my ex best fren..we nv talk man..but we used to be so called best fren. Actually i dun feel like going but then i give my fren a very big face..so i decided to go just for her..i feel paiseh..cos i realli got like nothing to talk to him..till now i dunno y im there for..

After that on the way home, i caught a jason "fri the 13th" soft toy haha..so cute..not gotta give away man :P

finding my true self

2009-08-18T16:39:00.001+08:00

You are feeling really miserable at this time and you'd like to form a relationship with someone with whom you could really communicate. At the same time, whoever it may be, that special 'someone' must not conflict with your own belief system or ideals. This makes for tough going - but it would seem that the situation is only transitory. It will soon pass.

Most people are conditioned by their environment and you are no exception. You are an extremely emotional person - so much so that 'the wrong word' can lead you to tears. You feel other people's pain. You feel the need of sympathetic relationships and a pleasant work environment in order to develop and grow. You are an impulsive, loving individual with a great deal of inherent feeling.

You are not an argumentative sort of person and 'rather than fight - you'd switch' (an old cigarette ad cliche). But when you try to assert yourself - as sometimes you may try to do - you meet with so much resistance and effrontery that manifests itself so obviously that you become hurt, indignant and resentful. So in order to have peace and quiet you tend to become inhibited. You keep it all to yourself but deep down, you 'feel' and 'hurt' a lot.

As of late, you have been experiencing untold stress and this is a result of continuous frustration. You haven't been taking care of all your physical needs and it's beginning to show. It would seem that you have a need to find someone to whom you can really relate - someone perhaps whose standards are as high as your own. You want to be different - to be individualistic - to stand out from the common herd. Your inherent control of your sensual instincts is restricting your ability to give yourself to open up freely but this being on your own, being lonely, often makes you feel the need to give up some of your strict standards to surrender to the general flow - to be like everyone else; a part of the herd. Deep down you regard such instincts as weaknesses to be overcome. You would like to be loved or admired for yourself alone. You demand recognition and tender loving care.

You are putting on a show - a facade. You are a master of demonstrating considerable charm in the hope that this can or will lead to better things. Deep down you are fearful that this may not work and that you may have to employ other strategies in order to realise all your ambitions.

Watever it is..feel free to post comments :)

Tennis

2009-07-05T02:12:00.004+08:00

Yo..today slp until so happy sia..woke up at 12pm i think..then slack and online until 2 ..then went out meet my beloved cousin..we meet up for tennis..when we reach the front gate of the nyp..my cousin press the intercom and talk to the security guard to open the gate..but he say cannot..cos we aint affiliated to the sch..nabei then we walk back...then we suddenly saw a cute gal headin to the gate..so i told edmund..y nt we follow the girl..cos she got the card..in the end the girl turn towards us and tell us sch will be close..and nobody should enter the sch at this time..i was like wtf..i would have give her a stone cold stunner..for wat the crap she say....in the end..we went to the nearby club house to book a tennis court..in the end the lady at the counter say the court have been fully booked..and ask us to wait for 5 mins..

Then theres 2 gals standing before the counter..and 1 lady ask the counter lady wats the number for spca cos theres a little kitten got trapped inside the toilet..Then my cousin said"this is ridiculous..if i were me.i would have leave the kitten alone..for wat fuck call the spca.."

Wah the price so expensive..but then its not something we cant afford..if u can play for free y pay for it?Do u agree with me?So i suggest we go to the back gate of nyp..hoping that the back gate wasnt locked..when we reached there...to our dismay the gate was locked..but then the good thing is tat the student from nyp was also there..just behind us..so we waited for him to open the gate ..and sneaked inside..

When we reached there the court is empty ..without further ado we started to serve,smash and slice..until shuang..then i told him..lets play a set..in the end i won 6-3..

ORD aftermath

2009-05-16T18:13:00.003+08:00

Damn this day has arrive,so wat the fuck am i going to spend the remaining days??
i have no idea..slack first then see how..ironically i have been talking to ord personnel for the past few days hopefully..i can find a part time job to kill my boredom..haiz..ytd apply for uni..dun know whether can enter anot..meanwhile..i just slack and go out baah..life so boring

THE END
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13 extras in 30 days

2009-05-01T17:27:00.002+08:00

u would be wondering how i survive the extras?i endure throughout..offended a couple of ppl with my bad temper and attitude..i know i shouldnt be flaring up my temper for no good reason..but i knew..i had to if not concealing everything in my heart could be detrimental to my health..well..i always have good temper..till lately..im mentally and physically exhausted..cant believe i learn so much from this 13 extras in a month than the first 20 months in army LOL

Today is labor day,everyone shouldnt be working ...should be spending more time at home..to enjoy the holiday..like me..slacking..all the way to next week fri..haiz..4 more working days..to my ord ..

Living on the edge

2009-04-26T18:28:00.002+08:00

wat am i gonna write today?damn it...i just love death metals songs...they make me feel high...damn it...17 more days to ord lo...5 more extras to serve..5 more days of leave to clear...damn i seems so busy..as u can see...im writing this post on my camp i-net..cos im too boring...

7 extras for losing the vespa key for having the last touch.. ..how unlucky can u get...LOL
I told myself just serve and go..Recently just went to the buddhist temple and pray..and ''fang sheng'' like 8 eels each..at a deserted river..with my sister..after that i just feel all the bad luck in the world have gone..

ENdure!!!

LIFE MAKE ME SAD

2009-04-10T23:53:00.002+08:00

TOday is good Friday...it should be a good day for many ppl...cos its a public holiday but not for me..cos tml i will be going back camp and do my FUCKING duty....I be Serving my extras(8)..which i think is ridiculous...yet true..MAYBE is karma..YTD i heard i kenna trouble again..for scanning the wrong amount of the rations..CONSEQUENCes? 3 extras or 1206...of course..i would choose to pay...its around 100 bucks..almost a quarter of my salary..to ease my misery of having to do the duties again..IF i CHOOSE to do again..then i must be crazy..11 extras per month..

TOday is also my sister birthday...all her frens come here to celebrate her 21st birthday..as a brother im happy for her..she achieved almost everything she wans..i think..im just the opposite..failure..without a doubt...Well life goes on...

Tml i serving my 5th duty..hopes everything goes on smoothly..1 more month to ORD! wish me good luck!

Sick

2009-02-28T16:18:00.002+08:00

wat should i blog about?Let talk about last week..almost got into serious trouble for getting in mc late in the nite..when i should have book-in lol..In the end ,i almost go db for 20 days ,luckily master chu help me "qiu qin"..in the end i kenna 3 extras lol...WAt a day!!..

Bought a SF4 manual,hoping to learn all the tricks and one day trash all the ppl in the arcade lol..Was too sick to write any further lol...73 days more to go ...to ORD

Sickbay

2009-01-13T09:42:00.002+08:00

Ytd i went to report sick at the medical center,the doctor diagnosed and found tat i had low blood pressure cos i feel abit dizzy.The next thing i know,he ask me to lie on the bed..and keep pressing my abdomen..and lower down..and did pull my underwear down lol..luckily he didnt fonder my dick rofl..The next thing i know i was send to the sickbay..The sickbay was rather small and cosy..with onli 6 beds(3 on each sides) and a medic to attend to my needs at all times...(feel grateful) i lie from around 9am to 2 plus in the afternoon..with a drip on me at all times..even i had to drag the stand of drip into the toilet 3 times..LOL

Initially i got just 3 days of light duties but then the doctor amended it and gave me 2 days mc..and 1 day light duty..which im grateful to him..I left the medical center and approached to the vespa store..and saw sgt khoo and johnji..(couldnt be bothered to listen to sgt khoo craps)

2 days of mc=1 extra lol..actually is worth it..i dun mind doing extras..provided its reasonable..lol..u know y i said tat?illegal stayout for almost every tues and thurs lol...and not getting caught LOL..1 extra actually for the keypress book..(karma had caught up with me).Every cause has its effect...when i know i gotten extra..i did not whined about it..lol.Its quite a good deal considering sleeping at sickbay for the whole morning and feeling revitalised..in exchange for 1 duty..4 months left to ord...who dun wanna get outta of the shithole?

Went shopping at the nearby tamp mall,bought myself 2 books to entertain myself..i haven touch a book like for dunno how many yrs lol..Made nicole pissed off lol...which i dun know y i do tat for...haiz..regret my action..hope shes alright~~

Life is sad~

2009-01-11T18:27:00.002+08:00

Woke up in the morning by around 9am..saw 2 missed calls on my hp..from the army..first thing on my mind is tat i thought maybe could be some activation thingy? i sms some of my mates and found out from ralph tat someone call me becos he thought i was the dsm for tat day lol...misunderstanding..:

Went to the clinic to take their medical slips were my parents..to my dismay,i saw tat my father health wasnt as good as expected...(not going into detail about tat)my mother fare better..I was overwhelmed with emotions..no words can explain wat im going through at that moment..Before tat, my mother hit the car against the pavement..when parking..seems like the renault gonna get fixed again haiz...such a bad day sia..

During the lunch,my father keep lamenting tat i need to plan for my route..wat i wanna do in life..which i have no idea...which makes me think tat..almost everyone when coming to a detour had to decide which way to go..im no diff..(left 4 months till ord..receive a letter from the government)

Recieve a sms from nicole..asking me out cos shes bored...which i dunno y i should...to go out with her for 1 hour to make her happy then go home is foolish..i told her..when u have the time to go out..then sms me..if not its wasting everybody time..

Life sux...i dare not think of the future..i always escape from reality..when i hit a bump...from now on i tell myself to be strong...

New yr resolution

2009-01-05T21:42:00.002+08:00

U know wat i hate about new yr resolution?Cos it always doesnt come true for me LOL...watever..la..Feeling abit of headache while postin here...Hope my family stay happy and healthy~Me..getting to know more frens and stay healthy~Lastly..Ord happily LOL..

Personality test

2008-11-26T21:58:00.001+08:00

Your view on yourself:Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.
Your views on educationYou may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.
The right job for you:You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.
How do you view success:Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working.
What are you most afraid of:You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.
Who is your true self:You like privacy very much because you enjoy spending time with your own thoughts. You like to disappear when you cannot find solutions to your own problems, but you would feel better if you learned to share your thoughts with a person you trust.

boring day

2008-11-25T22:05:00.002+08:00

its 25th nov...ytd i went to seletar to take the technical handling test..i reach there about 10am..waited for 40 mins..lol before we go take our m16 rifle..theres about 4 stations..everything ended so smoothly so me and glen went back home..taking advantage of the half day off..(our off-pass showing till 5.30)...

Thinking about the leave i taken ,i was elated..it was from 16-23,25-30..i was thinking of taking off on the 15th also..as master chu said tat we cannot keep our offs..12 more working days...to my break lo..it seems near yet far lol..tmr i will settle all the remaining off lo..

Boring day

2008-11-17T21:36:00.002+08:00

Watching the channel 8 8pm show saddens me..didnt know there r even more unfortunate ppl outside these world..haiz..dun wanna say about it..Today vinny call me asking me to play dofus..didnt he know tat i was in camp meh lol..he keep asking me not to sell kamas to edward as he wan to earn a quick buck from a 15 yr old online fren..i was like omg..y u wanna cheat a 15 yr old hardearn pocket money haiz..and wat u didnt know is tat he earns a hefty 2800 amonth sia..Then i rmb got 1 incident..we jy,jw,vinny and me..were eating at a taiwan xiaochi..then we were browsing through the menu..deciding wat to eat..then the set he decided on had all the things except a drink..then he propose that the dessert could change into a drink lol..then we wave the waitress over lol..He ask the waitress if the dessert can change to a drink..the waitress replied no lol..vinny then change his mind and choose the same set as me..(set with a drink).He said to the waitress"wah this set got no drink sia..i wan this set "we all were laughing to ourselves sia..Lastly the aeroplane thingy ..haiz dun wanna mention it le.

November Duty

2008-11-01T14:09:00.002+08:00

Its a saturday morning...y am i still at home slacking?cos i sold my duty off for 70 bucks lol..so november i dun have to do any duty..didnt realise im so slack till now...had to change liao..i told myself everyday..yet dont have the will to do it..I told myself..i will not sell anymore duty..and i gonna do the Dec duty myself..Dun wan anyone to look down on me..haiz..

Its bored haiz..i gonna find something interesting to do..I shall stop here.

Outburst of temper

2008-10-23T23:44:00.002+08:00

For the first time this week i dun have to stay in...thanks god !!Today i almost got into a fite with my fren...and it all start wif an "off"..as i was talking to december about a possible off lol...then my fren suan me say" u lost all ur match still dare to get off".Then i retorted back saying at least i get 3 points off a second seeded player in a set...how about u?u lost 9-0,9-0.Then he said tat if hes not wearing green ,he would have hoot me..Like i give a damn about it lol ...same goes for me..if he wanna have a fite wif me..it fine wif me..In a fit of an anger..i told him..i meet u at amk hub at 12am if u got the guts lol...he dared me lol..perhaps he thinks im joking..In my heart i actually mean it...

Then he pushed me..i got fed up..i told him if u push me again..i will not hold back my punches..he knows better tat if he hit me..he will get db..somehow it works..we make a pact not to "suan" each other lol ..In my heart,i still feel du lan lol..

After the maintenance thingy..he said sorry to me cos he wasnt in a good mood..As a gentlemen ,i accepted his apology...

Valuable experience

2008-10-22T23:25:00.000+08:00

Woke up early in the morning...about 7am..was preparing to go for squash individual competition..though i know is better to forfeit than to disgrace myself there lol..playing against a second seeded player means theres little chance of an upset lol..as expected i lose 9-0,9-3 lol..

everything happens so quickly and..in the end the final was between MWO lee and the second seeded player Pte Nasir who ousted me out earlier in the first round..Surprisringly,it wasnt a close affair as MWO lee easily despatched a inexperienced Nasir to win the competition..

After that we took oursleves to some snacks ordered by MWO Chin..Then the prize ceremony and then they announced the chosen players selected for the inter-formation team.

Another boring day isnt it?